9 weeks, 1 day

WE SAW OUR BABY!!!!!!

This morning, March 12 at 8:30a, I had my first ultrasound-- I was really really nervous, as was Dave, who was also extremely sick, and I almost didn't even want to have the ultrasound done.  I thought that if I didn't know our baby had passed, I could keep feeling this happy, but finding out would end all that and we'd have to face reality.  Twisted, I know, but I was so debating having it done.

I drove to my appointment, got undressed, and there was our baby-- a little jellybean!  The tech clicked and clicked away, but I was still so nervous-- is everything okay, is he alive?  Then she clicked on the heart and played the audio of its heartbeat---- it was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced in my entire life!  I started crying, but tried to hide it, unsuccessfully.  She asked me, Isn't that so beautiful?  I sobbed, 'yes!!'.  She laughed and said, it would not be normal to not be crying right now- especially with everything we'd been through.  I thought that was nice of her to say.  She then told me about a woman who was 22 weeks and cried throughout the entire ultrasound-- every time she'd point out a hand or foot, she would sob-- I thought that was funny and cute.  Then she told me to look at the screen to see our little jellybean-- he was moving around like crazy!!  You could even see him moving his arms-- it was adorable!!  I say 'he' because when jellybean popped up on the screen- the tech said, there he is!  It kind of just stuck.:)

She also determined that jellybean measured two days younger than we thought-- he was 8 weeks 6 days, not 9 weeks 1 day.  She said we could keep the same due date if we wanted, but technically, his new due date is OCTOBER 16, 2010!  Yea!!