16 weeks, 4 days

I am trying to keep my spirits up and my faith strong-- I haven't felt jellybean in almost three days.  He was going at it like crazy, and in three days, I think I 'might' have felt him twice.  I am trying not to freak out, bean was just soooo active the last few weeks and then to feel nothing has caused me to be quite a wreck.  Dave has been so supportive and loving.  I just didn't have any idea how hard being pregnant was emotionally.  I just must press forward and know that God has given us this child and I will take each moment as it comes.  He is the one who ultimately knows my and this baby's fate and I am just going to trust and have faith in him that this baby will be healthy and happy.  I also know that having faith does not secure a baby that will survive-- he can do anything for his glory-- but I need to stop worrying and embrace each moment in being a pregnant woman carrying an amazing life that Christ has given us to grow and nurture.  I need to put my faith in him and not let burdens, worries and pain control my life.  Baby will be fine, kicks or no kicks.:)